The days have passed by so quickly. It is now the end of May and we are a mere 12 weeks from the beginning of a new and happy relationship with our new baby, Emma. Yes, our baby is a girl. Another girl!

I've spent the last two months working with my doctor to even out my mood and get to feeling better. I am still having to take an anti-nausea medicine every day so I can eat. He also adjusted my Thyroid medication; which has been a constant thorn in my side for many years. Fortunately, my doctor has put me back on Lexapro to help me feel less anxious and on a more even keel. I had taken this before I was pregnant and was off of it for the first 24 weeks of my pregnancy. I was feeling overwhelmed and having panic attacks several times a week. I also wasn't eating well; which made me lose weight instead staying where I was or gaining.

All in all, I feel tremendously better now--not perfect--but better. I am still sleeping a lot and get tired easily. I can't do much walking past 10 minutes or so because my lower abdominal muscles and ligaments are loose and not toned. I walk as much as I can though and I am beginning to feel that feeling of missing my baby...even though we haven't yet met face-to-face.

I think I am most excited about having that nursing relationship with my baby. That is something I have missed since Maren was 9 months old. Yes, the little mess decided to wean herself at 9 months because she had better things to do like play with her older brother and sister. She broke my heart! So, I am definitely looking forward to being able to nourish another little person and develop that close and precious bond that only nursing can provide.

Babies really are a gift from Jehovah God and I am thoroughly ecstatic to be able to care for another one of his gifts. Happiness is on its way again!